Where I have never gone before
Posted on Thursday, 18 March 2021 - 6:40pm by
Tilian Grol, Personal log.
I have been feeling...tired as of late. With all my duties and Soral asking me to help out with our new temporary guests I have not had a moment to myself. It appears that my quirks have been making themselves more prominent and the Romulans see it as a weakness.
Story of my life.
Things have been different as of late. I find myself spending time with Eyelaya a lot. I want to spend time with her more. There is something about that woman that has me tied up in knots. She is so gentle and pure and she has this way about her that she loves her friends with all her heart.
Although are we friends? We've slept together once and neither of us has talked about it. I yearn to but I don't want to either because I am worried that it could shatter this world of quirks that we've built.
Was it all a one night thing? Was it more? Was it us both needing comfort? I just don't know. I know that I care for her a great deal but is it more then friendship? Was that one night a mistake?
I'm so frustrated and lost. I don't have anyone to talk to about his but Luna and the cat...well that will be a one sided conversation...sort of when Soral asks for opinions but has already made up his mind.
My eyes are stinging and I'm exhausted but I doubt that I'll get any sleep tonight.
Computer delete log. I'm going to try again in the morning, perhaps my mind will be clearer.