What fate awaits?

Posted on Friday, 1 May 2020 - 12:50pm by Lieutenant T'Lanna Vali

Personal log - T’Lanna Vali, ship’s Psychologist and Counsellor.

I seriously hate talking to a computer about my inner most thoughts but right now it might just help to get my head straight. I haven’t long come back from seeing my mother, I’ve longed for a chance to find her again all these years but with risks being risks I couldn’t even touch her!

My head is a mess! Not a great thing for a Psychologist to say but that’s the honest truth! What I saw in my nightmare has me more afraid than I’m willing to admit to anyone else. It wasn’t anything from my past and it can’t be from my future, not now my mother is dead. But is she really dead?

In my nightmare I was with my mother....she was a Borg Queen! I told her I’d seen her die and she said that Queen’s never die and I have no idea if that’s true or not. I wasn’t alone in my nightmare, both Raith and I shared the same one, and I could never ever face losing him! Especially not that way, not to the Borg!

Speaking of Raith, the strangest things being people together and it’s certainly done that for us. I feel a connection to Raith the likes of which I’ve never had with anyone. Which makes it all the more special and him, all the more endearing and alluring to me.

On another note I made contact with Jason’s parents to give them the news about their grandchild. To say they were ecstatic was an understatement!! I have to admit I’m giving consideration to letting them look after my baby when I’m off station aboard the ship, but right now that’s months away and I have no doubt that’s going to be a very difficult decision to make. I’m only 7 weeks pregnant and I’m already feeling a maternal attachment to my baby, something I’m enjoying given that this wasn’t planned. I still miss Jason but I know he’d be happy that I’ve found Raith.

Anyway I’m pretty tired so I’m going to follow Commander Soral’s advice and get some rest.

{ End Personal Log. }

 

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